Diary

It’s been a while since I posted! 

Hi guys! I’m back today with a quick update since I haven’t posted in a while. I haven’t been doing anything special recently since it’s my summer break and I still have about 2 months until I go back to school. All I have been doing is using my savings bit by bit, go out from time to time to eat with friends and play games online. Since it is summer break, I’m left here without a job and no income but I will be back and ready in September when all the adorable little kids are back in school ! I will probably try to post here more often to try to gain more followers!đź’•

If you want to keep up with me, you can follow me on instagram or twitter! 

  • Instagram: @jvssicur 
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Love, J. 

If I ever have a child, …

I would never compare my child with someone else’s.
I will probably get a lot of negative response from this but I just wanted to put my own experience out here.

I grew up in a typical Chinese household. My parents immigrated from Hong Kong and China to provide my brother and I a better education and life. Basically, a better opportunity to shine. Unfortunately, many of my cousins and even my own brother, dropped out of college and so far, I am the only one who is currently attending a 4 year college. You might all say, “oh.. I am very lucky because my parents won’t be able to compare me to my relatives” but that’s not true. My mom compares me to her co-workers’ sons and daughters.  This started ever since I was in middle school, ranging from which school I got accepted in to my grades, behavior, attitude, my weight, skin, and even my hobbies.

Now… many people would argue that comparisons would make their own child be more competitive and do better in life but I want to say that is not true. A person should find their own competition and their own goal in life. A parent’s job should be to guide and support their child not give them stress, negative comments, and create competitions. Your son or daughter might be hardworking and fine now but are they happy in life? Do they despise you? Because there are times where I have thoughts that I despise my own parents even though I know they just want the best for me.

I have heard this statement many times already:
“Justin is going to be a doctor, and my other co-worker’s daughter is doing Nursing like why would you even choose Business as a major?!” 

My mother crushed my dreams.
Many people have asked me “What do I like to do?” or “What would I like to major in?”
but that question will forever be unanswered in my heart because my mother have constantly downgraded me and compared me to her co-workers’ sons and daughters, claiming how they have chose nursing, law, engineering or they went to Baruch, Hunter…”why did you transfer to Brooklyn College? It is such a bad school compare to the rest. What is wrong with you?” Comments like these have made me doubt my decisions, blinded me in what I genuinely want to do and pursue in life.

I just want to keep this post short but send a message. Let us choose our own path. Be there to support us. Parents have the right to give suggestions but don’t compare us. Let us find our own hardships. Let us experience our own harsh world but don’t be the one to create it. There will always be another person who is better than your own child and it is a never ending cycle. There are different ways to encourage your child to do better in school, to have a successful career and have a wonderful life.

 

There are many successful people in today’s society who didn’t have a STEM major. JUST SAYING.

 

 

 

With Love, J. 

 

Gaming tilts me but Osu! doesn’t

It’s been a while since I’ve posted but I’m still here! A lot of things have been going on…like exams, homework, and obviously gaming. I have been trying to climb ranks on League of Legends but it’s just tilt after tilt after tilt. Every time I do well during laning phase, the team fights just trumps everything. There’s always no synergy. It is as if this elo, everyone is just brain dead because everyone just wants to carry but they don’t take into consideration that teammates are part of the whole idea of “winning.”

I’m really glad that I’m not super super affected by it though and I just shrug. Anyways! I have a lot of midterms and exams this month. It’s going to be hell, but I’m trying to play games once in a while to calm myself down and relax. I have been playing Summoners War for a month straight now, League of Legends here and there and also Osu! I probably won’t get into too much details because I’ll probably make another post about that.

Anyways, I haven’t played Osu! in a while so my movement is really choppy and missing easy circles all over the place but it was a fun map overall. I really miss back in the days when I used to just spam playing Osu! because my internet was down.

Sincerely, J.
See you next time!